What a day

Ok, have you ever had one of those days that start out ok and just steadily go downhill from there? Kinda sucks don't they. I guess all in all it isn't that bad, especially when you look at other peoples' problems, but still whenever you go through any kind of difficult time it is hard to look past the tip of your nose. Sometimes it feels like life just hands you a raw deal and you have to wade through all of the sludge to get where you want to go. I will say one thing for sure, I WISH I had known what I wanted to be when I grew up about twenty years ago. Maybe I would have been able to avoid some of the feelings of worthlessness I have now. (Not that bad though, just ranting because I can)
Ok, on a brighter note there is almost always a light at the end of the tunnel. If anyone reads this and my words can touch your heart in some way, don't give up on your dreams. You never know when something is going to turn your life around and BOOM you are right where you always wished you could be. What is my dream you ask? Whoa, now there is a tall order. Ok, I will share it with you, but ya gotta keep it a secret ok? Here it is. could you imagine being able to write so powerfully that when a person reads it they actually FEEL what it is you are writing about. If I was writing about someone breaking down in tears of frustration I want the reader to feel that gut wrenching feeling that only those who experience it can understand. I want to be able to write so poetically, so completely, and so intensly that the reader is sucked in and simply cannot put the words away. Then after being able to do that, I would write about the one subject that this whole world needs to know about. I would write about the one person who has done more for this world than any other being EVER. Could you imagine being able to feel and understand in a way never before what it is that Christ has done for you personally? Being able to feel his pain in gethsemany (Uncomprehensable as that is) being able to walk with him as people ridicule and spit upon him, revile him and taunt him. and through it all it is almost like you were there witnessing it and living through it with him. How powerful and yet wonderful would that be to be able to read and understand those events. It may not even be possible to do that but wouldn't that be a dream worth bringing alive? Well here is to dreams. One day we will each understand and know what Christ has done for us and I can't wait to be able to bath his feet with my tears of grattitude for what he has done for me. For ME! think about that, NOBODY KNOWS ME yet he does and did the greatest gift in the world for ME! next time your feeling down think about that and maybe you will feel a little better. anyway that's my dream, shhh don't tell anyone 'k'? (wink)
see ya later.

Me