Ok, have you ever had one of those days that start out ok and just steadily go downhill from there? Kinda sucks don't they. I guess all in all it isn't that bad, especially when you look at other peoples' problems, but still whenever you go through any kind of difficult time it is hard to look past the tip of your nose. Sometimes it feels like life just hands you a raw deal and you have to wade through all of the sludge to get where you want to go. I will say one thing for sure, I WISH I had known what I wanted to be when I grew up about twenty years ago. Maybe I would have been able to avoid some of the feelings of worthlessness I have now. (Not that bad though, just ranting because I can)
Ok, on a brighter note there is almost always a light at the end of the tunnel. If anyone reads this and my words can touch your heart in some way, don't give up on your dreams. You never know when something is going to turn your life around and BOOM you are right where you always wished you could be. What is my dream you ask? Whoa, now there is a tall order. Ok, I will share it with you, but ya gotta keep it a secret ok? Here it is. could you imagine being able to write so powerfully that when a person reads it they actually FEEL what it is you are writing about. If I was writing about someone breaking down in tears of frustration I want the reader to feel that gut wrenching feeling that only those who experience it can understand. I want to be able to write so poetically, so completely, and so intensly that the reader is sucked in and simply cannot put the words away. Then after being able to do that, I would write about the one subject that this whole world needs to know about. I would write about the one person who has done more for this world than any other being EVER. Could you imagine being able to feel and understand in a way never before what it is that Christ has done for you personally? Being able to feel his pain in gethsemany (Uncomprehensable as that is) being able to walk with him as people ridicule and spit upon him, revile him and taunt him. and through it all it is almost like you were there witnessing it and living through it with him. How powerful and yet wonderful would that be to be able to read and understand those events. It may not even be possible to do that but wouldn't that be a dream worth bringing alive? Well here is to dreams. One day we will each understand and know what Christ has done for us and I can't wait to be able to bath his feet with my tears of grattitude for what he has done for me. For ME! think about that, NOBODY KNOWS ME yet he does and did the greatest gift in the world for ME! next time your feeling down think about that and maybe you will feel a little better. anyway that's my dream, shhh don't tell anyone 'k'? (wink)
see ya later.
Me
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Answers, I need answers
Ok, I was just reading through the Deseret News and came across a story about Osama-Bin-Ladens son. He would like to work in peaceful means to bring understanding to the west. I admire that greatly because I agree with him that military might is not the answer. I have some questions to pose though. I would like some one from the Arab world to answer me if they can please, and I will be as honest and open as I can. All I ask is the same in return.
1. Why does the Arab world hate the U.S so much? I reason this because it seems that the Arab world really wants to do harm to the U.S. Ok maybe not all of the Arab world but it seems like whenever some disaster happens in the U.S that costs life the (Palastinians for an example) are dancing in the streets, the Iranians have a famous picture of the statue of liberty and the face is a skull, etc. What gives? Why are you guys so mad?
2. Maybe question 1 and 2 are grouped but here it is. Why do you want to erase Israel? The Iranian president has been quoted numerous times as saying Israel is a "blot on the map that needs to be erased". Ok, first of all they are PEOPLE! nobody deserves that kind of language. Even Hitler didn't recieve that kind of lashing, when Germany was beatten the allied armies didn't obliterate the people. they recognized them as people who have every bit as much a right to live as you and I. I am being honest here ok, there is a saying that gets circulated here among some of our (Ohh how shall I put this nicely) uneducated. "They are a bunch of ragtops and we should just nuke em and be done". I get so mad at that kind of thinking and speech, the first thing that I do is to tell them to knock it off, then I try to educate them on just a few of the things that the Arab world has given to the world. I look at the Arab culture and there are so many wonderful examples of history, beauty, majesty. There is ALOT of good in those cultures. can you not see any good in ours as well?
3. The Arab nations have a deep and abiding love for their religion, I love that and respect your conviction. Can you not respect mine as well? I would NEVER dream of defaming or ridiculing your beliefs, instead I look for what is admirable in them. I was told a story once by a friend who had visited and lived in an Arab state (can't remember which one it was) and she told me that you could leave a 1,000 dollar bill on the sidewalk and walk into the store, when you came back out it would still be there. Is that not a VERY praiseworthy remark? I don't know of any place in the US that you could do that. That is what I would call bragging rights. In otherwords that is an admirable trait that I want to follow. Couldn't you find something like that in my religion also?
4. Why can't we all just get along? I often tell that to my children when they fight and argue. I don't see any reason why we can't learn from and help each other out. I don't know where my line of thinking is so off but I am asking anyone from the Arab nations to write me back. give me a comment and explain to me what your answers are to my 4 questions and I would love to hear from you.
Me
1. Why does the Arab world hate the U.S so much? I reason this because it seems that the Arab world really wants to do harm to the U.S. Ok maybe not all of the Arab world but it seems like whenever some disaster happens in the U.S that costs life the (Palastinians for an example) are dancing in the streets, the Iranians have a famous picture of the statue of liberty and the face is a skull, etc. What gives? Why are you guys so mad?
2. Maybe question 1 and 2 are grouped but here it is. Why do you want to erase Israel? The Iranian president has been quoted numerous times as saying Israel is a "blot on the map that needs to be erased". Ok, first of all they are PEOPLE! nobody deserves that kind of language. Even Hitler didn't recieve that kind of lashing, when Germany was beatten the allied armies didn't obliterate the people. they recognized them as people who have every bit as much a right to live as you and I. I am being honest here ok, there is a saying that gets circulated here among some of our (Ohh how shall I put this nicely) uneducated. "They are a bunch of ragtops and we should just nuke em and be done". I get so mad at that kind of thinking and speech, the first thing that I do is to tell them to knock it off, then I try to educate them on just a few of the things that the Arab world has given to the world. I look at the Arab culture and there are so many wonderful examples of history, beauty, majesty. There is ALOT of good in those cultures. can you not see any good in ours as well?
3. The Arab nations have a deep and abiding love for their religion, I love that and respect your conviction. Can you not respect mine as well? I would NEVER dream of defaming or ridiculing your beliefs, instead I look for what is admirable in them. I was told a story once by a friend who had visited and lived in an Arab state (can't remember which one it was) and she told me that you could leave a 1,000 dollar bill on the sidewalk and walk into the store, when you came back out it would still be there. Is that not a VERY praiseworthy remark? I don't know of any place in the US that you could do that. That is what I would call bragging rights. In otherwords that is an admirable trait that I want to follow. Couldn't you find something like that in my religion also?
4. Why can't we all just get along? I often tell that to my children when they fight and argue. I don't see any reason why we can't learn from and help each other out. I don't know where my line of thinking is so off but I am asking anyone from the Arab nations to write me back. give me a comment and explain to me what your answers are to my 4 questions and I would love to hear from you.
Me
Thursday, January 17, 2008
What a life!
Is it just me or does life seem to get more and more crazy the older you get? I look back at how life was for me as a teen and I would give almost anything to go back to those years. (Of course it has nothing to do with how out of shape I feel HA,HA) There are so many things that I am thankful for so don't get me wrong I do love my life and how good things are to me, I just wish they would SLOW DOWN sometimes.
Ok, enough of that, I have beatten that one to a veritable pulp. I have had some interesting things happen since my last entery. I have an internship with our local paper and they are sending me on my first story tomorrow (smiles). I am going to do my best to write a terrific story for them and hopefully I can get my mom to relax a little as well. Ya see, my story is on a nail salon, and since I know sooo much about nails it is going to be great! yeah my thoughts as well, which is why I figured that if I take my mom and spoil her a little I could use the time to watch and learn; then I could relate to the reader what I saw.
I am still pluggin away at school and sometimes I wonder what in the #@% I was thinking about taking so many classes. But I do enjoy them so far, the teachers make it alot of fun and I get alot of hands on experience. I dream of the day that the schooling is done and I can maybe make something of myself. Even though I have a book out, "The Chosen Chronicles Book One" I haven't had any time to write book two (Frown) I will eventually and then my reader base (all twelve or so) will know what happens next (Wink).
Ok I think I have rambled endlessly on enough for today. I will try to pick it up again later.
See ya around
Me
Ok, enough of that, I have beatten that one to a veritable pulp. I have had some interesting things happen since my last entery. I have an internship with our local paper and they are sending me on my first story tomorrow (smiles). I am going to do my best to write a terrific story for them and hopefully I can get my mom to relax a little as well. Ya see, my story is on a nail salon, and since I know sooo much about nails it is going to be great! yeah my thoughts as well, which is why I figured that if I take my mom and spoil her a little I could use the time to watch and learn; then I could relate to the reader what I saw.
I am still pluggin away at school and sometimes I wonder what in the #@% I was thinking about taking so many classes. But I do enjoy them so far, the teachers make it alot of fun and I get alot of hands on experience. I dream of the day that the schooling is done and I can maybe make something of myself. Even though I have a book out, "The Chosen Chronicles Book One" I haven't had any time to write book two (Frown) I will eventually and then my reader base (all twelve or so) will know what happens next (Wink).
Ok I think I have rambled endlessly on enough for today. I will try to pick it up again later.
See ya around
Me
Thursday, January 10, 2008
First time blogger
Hey!
This is a first for me. (Smiles) I have no idea what I am doing but it seems fairly cool. So let me get this straight, this is basically an online journal that the world can read? What a scary yet at the same time cool idea. What kinds of things can possibly interest the world at large to look at and read someone elses personal daily life? Especially one as mundane as my own? I guess maybe to see that they are not alone in this world and that maybe, just maybe, someone else has some issues that are similar to their own. Hmm novel thought, that could be very interesting and encouraging at the same time. Yet wouldn't that open up a pathway for possible preditors as well? Think about it, what if a "hunter" for lack of a better word, looked at these blogs just to try to find people who were open and vulnerable just so they could prey on them. Isn't that a possiblity as well? Scarry thought! So can anyone post on this? or can they just read it and reply to me? (Like I said I have never done this before). Ok, well I suppose that I will end on this note for now since I have NO idea what else to write down. Hmm thoughts to ponder.
Talk later
This is a first for me. (Smiles) I have no idea what I am doing but it seems fairly cool. So let me get this straight, this is basically an online journal that the world can read? What a scary yet at the same time cool idea. What kinds of things can possibly interest the world at large to look at and read someone elses personal daily life? Especially one as mundane as my own? I guess maybe to see that they are not alone in this world and that maybe, just maybe, someone else has some issues that are similar to their own. Hmm novel thought, that could be very interesting and encouraging at the same time. Yet wouldn't that open up a pathway for possible preditors as well? Think about it, what if a "hunter" for lack of a better word, looked at these blogs just to try to find people who were open and vulnerable just so they could prey on them. Isn't that a possiblity as well? Scarry thought! So can anyone post on this? or can they just read it and reply to me? (Like I said I have never done this before). Ok, well I suppose that I will end on this note for now since I have NO idea what else to write down. Hmm thoughts to ponder.
Talk later
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